oh, i distracted myself.

nobody's fault. it's just that i'm very data-responsive and something caught my attention before I started working.

so let me back up a bit. a few months ago someone suggested that one minor thing I could do was not let myself look at the distracting internet first thing in the morning. Just. Don't look at it. go about your day.

so i tried it out and it was very effective, and I was happy. I did it consistently for about a week, and i pumped myself up with how good it was to do this thing, how well it protected me from getting lost in unimportant stuff that sapped my energy, etc.

and then one morning I forgot about it completely and opened the internet.

( cw self-administered emotional abuse  )