okay here's my real resolution:

[cpolk]

EMBODIMENT PAPER JOURNAL PROJECT 2007 | LEARN MORE + JOIN


I actually wanted to do this last year, but decided that I couldn't commit to it. I have commitment issues. shutup.

but this year (the one coming in two and some hours) I would like to do this. I have a lot of reasons for wanting to write in a paper journal.

part of it is that I just don't feel comfortable with doing the kind of writing I feel I need to do here on my LJ - no not even in private locked posts. I had thought about it. I even tried a few times. but it just didn't feel right.

neither did it feel right to just open up word or notepad and write it there. It felt better and more appropriate to grab my fountain pen and one of the zillion books I have and write *there* - since I didn't have a book dedicated precisely to this work I have entries from a given year scattered across volumes. I'd try starting a journal and then abandon it because it was the closest thing to hand when I needed to write a phone number or a list or some ruminations about a story I was writing or thinking of, and I'd feel the effect of the journal was ruined.

This time I don't really care, just so long as the whole mess goes into *one* book. so if I have to write down a phone number and the only thing close by is my pwecious journal? I'll write the number down and date it. bang, it's an entry. same thing with grocery lists. it's an entry. It counts. it all counts.

But I have this idea that I should start with a brand new book from scratch, and I don't currently have anything that's unused. why do I always come up with an idea that is automatically blocked so I can't do it right away with no impediments? gah.

I haven't decided yet if I'm going to do the thing that the other community does and scan pages or whatever. I suppose I'll just leave it open. I might share or I might not.

And if I lose my fountain pen or run out of ink, it'll be a disaster. I've fetishized the fountain pen to an alarming degree. I should probably get one of better quality than the one that I have, but. That's money I could be saving for airfare. (March feels like it's a century away, but the clock, she is still ticking. and I want her to tick. I'd like it if she'd hurry it up a little, geez.)

And secretly I wish everyone would go away so I can have an isolated New year's, thankssomuch.